No pain, no gain?

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I have been on an emotional high lately. Not sure if it is a mania swing or I am just feeling happy and healthier than I have in quite some time. Either way, I have been embracing it and hoping that it isn’t temporary.

Because of this change, one of the things I have decided to do is start exercising again. I was walking and stretching, but I started to kick it up a notch. I have been doing low impact aerobics and lots of floor work. Things were going great until yesterday.

I was on the floor doing “crunches”. I had just started my third set on my left side when I felt a tearing sensation, then a pop. I screamed out in pain which sent my cats out from where ever they were sleeping to investigate. I stood up slowly and tried to stretch it out thinking that would help. WRONG! The pain just intensified. I hadn’t felt that much pain in quite some time.

I applied heat. I took Tylenol. Nothing was helping. I gave in and called my husband and he took me to the hospital. After an exam and talking with the doctor, we figured out that I more than likely had torn my internal oblique muscle.

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I was sent home with Percocet and told I was to take it easy for the next two weeks. Taking it easy and knocked out on meds is where I was prior to this high. Sigh…Hoping it is just a temporary set back and I will be back to my healthy, happy self soon.

To write or not to write…

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That is the question today. I have been struggling lately with what to write on here. I have multiple ideas already thought out. I know I will get them out eventually. I guess I am feeling a bit exposed after writing https://stephssoapbox.wordpress.com/2013/01/30/my-ride-on-the-bipolar-train-with-multiple-diagnosis-stops-along-the-way/. I revealed quite a bit about my life in that post, but I still have so much more to say. I know that is the reason I came here and I don’t feel wrong about telling you guys, but with my social anxiety I feel so nervous now. Anyone else feel this way after starting a personal blog? I know I am not alone. I have already read MANY beautiful, inspirational posts that touched my heart. I guess I should just trust that voice inside me and let my story out.

Someone I recently went to lunch with told me that every day he wakes up in the morning is a good day. After all I have been through, that really struck me. HARD. It made me stop and think. We do need to make each day count. If by sharing my story with the world helps even one person, I have accomplished a lot.

For a few years I have been flirting with the idea of writing a memoir. It might just be for me and my family or I might try to get it published so I can help others who have had some of the same struggles. (I have some writing experience, but I would love any advice.)

So, yes, I will continue to blog about myself, my trials and tribulations. The highs and lows in a persons life make them who they are. I have slowly learned that over the years. I hope you will continue with me on my journey. I always welcome ALL comments.

 

As a person who deals with anxiety and depression on a daily basis, I support this idea fully. The world needs a better understanding of the struggles we suffer through.

I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project.  I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others.  By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health.  I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.

Lordy, Lordy! How the *&$% am I 40?!

ImageToday is the big 4 0. In some ways it is a SCARY number. It sounds so big…so adult…so monumentous. I always thought that by 40 I would have life figured out and I would know exactly who I was and what I wanted from it. As I sit here today, I realize that is so far from the truth. Ask any other “adults” if they knew what life was about at 40 and if they were where they want to be and I bet 80% of them would look at you dumbfounded at not know what to say. Today, I am the same. I embrace what life has given me thus far, but I have no idea what lies ahead. Surely I will have many, many more years to find my answers.

I choose to look at my 40’s as a stepping stone for the years to come. I have been through a lot of good and bad times in these past 40 years. I have learned a lot and they taught me values, patience, understanding, and much, much more. I don’t know what will happen in the next 40 years, but I will take each day as it comes. After everything life has thrown at me, I can handle it. Bring it on!

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Les Miserables- My review

First, I must apologize for not blogging for a bit. Life took over. But I will try my hardest to keep up with this from now on.  thumbsup

 

So my husband asked me what I would like to do for my birthday this year. (I will be hitting the big 40 on Saturday.) I was able to convince him to take me to see Les Miserables. I have been wanting to see this film for awhile now and it seemed like a good time to get payback for all the action/Superhero movies I have sat through in the past year. (Avengers, anyone? Eeek.) He got a bit squirmy a few times, but he made it through like a champ! I had a hard time not bursting out singing in the middle of the theater. I held back the tears though, although an older couple in front of us were holding each other by the end and bawling.

Here is my two cents about the film:

Overall, it held up quite well to the Broadway musical. I enjoyed the fact that the actors actually did “live” takes of their songs and it wasn’t pre-taped and lip synched. You could truly read the emotions and passion on their faces as they sang. That process made all the difference in the world.

From the beginning shot of Hugh Jackman as Jean Valjean, I knew he would steal the show. His transformation into a slave was incredible. He was barely recognizable due to his weight loss and his hair cut short. His voice was wonderful throughout and he deserves all the accolades he has been receiving. (My husband kept waiting for Wolverines claws to come out and kill everyone. Would have made it a completely different, yet entertaining movie!) Hugh Jackman

LOVED Anne Hathaway as Fantine. The fact that she allowed her hair to be chopped off to keep the authenticity of the role made Fantine seem so much more real. Her version of “I Dreamed a Dream” blew me away. I was hoping her character would live longer so I could hear more of her beautiful voice. Anne has come a LONG way from the Princess Diaries! reg_1024.lesmis.anne.mh.053012

 

As for Russell Crowe…His acting as Javert was great. He definitely embraced the character. But, as for his singing…maybe he could have used a few more vocal lessons. It was good for what it was, but it couldn’t hold up to the other voice talents in the film. I honestly have to say it took me out of the movie a bit.   crowe-1-0102

Amanda Seyfried was wonderful as Cosette. Her vocals, as always, were impeccable. Some of her high notes blew me away. She played quite well off of Hugh Jackman and Eddie Redmayne. The only time I almost shed tears was at the end when Jean Valjean is dying (Sorry. Spoiler alert!) and Cosette is weeping. Such beautiful acting by all.  les-miserables-still08 A Seyfried

Eddie Redmayne was perfect as Marius. I had never heard Eddie sing before, but was pleasantly surprised! He has such a beautiful tone. (Decent eye candy as well!) His scenes with both Amanda and Samantha Barks were wonderful. les-miserables-eddie-redmayne

Samantha Barks as Eponine was ingenious. It is hard to believe that this is her first feature film role! I had seen her play the role in the 25th Anniversary version of the musical. She was just as breathtaking on the big screen. Samantha’s version of “On My Own” was mesmerizing. That is my favorite song from the musical and she is now my favorite artist to sing it.  Samantha Barks

Isabelle Allen as young Cosette and Daniel Huttlestone as Gavroche were adorable. Isabelle was spot on singing “Castle on a Cloud”. She was amusing while trying to get away from the innkeeper and his wife! Daniel was hilarious with “Little People”. Such a little bad ass! I knew his death scene (Again, sorry. Spoiler alert!) was imminent, but it still shocked me. I hated to see him go.  les

The parts that concerned me the most were of the innkeeper and his wife. When I heard that the wife would be Helena Bonham Carter, that seemed fitting. She always does wacky roles. When I heard Sacha Baron Cohen was cast as the innkeeper I wasn’t as thrilled. Never been a huge fan of his. He just seems like a total jerk to me. But, singing aside, they both did the roles justice. They were quite entertaining and I guess that is the bottom line. les-miserables-helena-bonham-carter-sacha-baron-cohen-thenardier-via-suicideblonde

Overall, I would say that I quite enjoyed the film. The music and vocal talents were outstanding and the acting was wonderful. I would easily recommend it to those that enjoy musicals and to those that need to get payback for all the action movies you have endured! (Love you hubby!) I would give it an 81/2 out of 10.